The last few weeks has been an eye opener for me as a mom, a woman, and a sister. As a mom I realised that I just don't have enough hours in the day. I mean it has been weeks since my last post. I usually check my email once a week. I mean I do all the important things well. Better than well. I am an excellent mom. Some may not agree, and it even took me a long time to realise that myself. But I am. I love my kids and they always come first. I have realised that I may not have the time to do all the things I want to do, but I have all the time in the world to do the things I am called to do. Being a mom is a ministry. It is something you are called to. Weaving integrity and character into these little lives, teaching them values that they will 'hopefully' hold dear to for the rest of their lives. What could possibly be more important? I am a mom. And that's a wonderful thing.

I have also learned that I am too hard on myself and care too much. I allow other people to drag me down, with their false ideas of who I am. Even if it is only one person, that one person's opinion can scar me. But worse, I allow it to. Rather than focusing on where my worth comes from, and all the other wonderful people in my life who truly know me. Who have taken the time and don't judge me for my faults or mistakes. But embrace me for who I am. I truly blessed to have people in my life like that. Who will pull me out of the mud. And I am even blessed to have that one person in my life who will try to pull me down, to remind me how blessed I am to have those who don't.

And for those who know me, make me feel so blessed. This week I was paid the highest compliment from my sister. She made me feel like I was her sister. So much so that it made me cry. We are sisters, not by blood, but by marriage and I am so blessed and overjoyed that she sees it that way too. Both of our lives are enriched because of that. Thank you so much TM, you have no idea how much that meant to me.

Here are a few snap shots of our life in the last month or so. No Christmas shots, no post about Kynan (yet), just our life. I guess I am too busy just enjoying life.

A Moment Frozen in Time

Tonight while at my girlfriends house watching a movie, I snuggled with my little precious angel boy who gazed back at my adoringly. For a moment time stood still as a looked right into his very essence. Many thoughts ran through my mind in that moment that seemed to last minutes. How handsome he is. How he one day will be someone's husband. I wondered who he would be when he grows up. But most prominent and immediate thought was, there's Dana. He looked so much like Dana in the eyes at that moment it melted my heart. It reminded me why he is here to begin with. Because I am in love with an incredible man who loves me for who I am and believes in my far more than I believe in myself. He stands by me through the storms and the rainbows and the big blue sky days. I am so blessed to not only have him in my life, but also little prodigals of him too. A little Kynan, a little Ava, and a little Eli. So blessed.

PS: I know I am missing alot of posts. Like one for Christmas, New Years, Kynan's Birthday and all the moments in between, but just for tonight I thought I would share this moment.